Thursday
Feb122004
leaning on friends
Thursday, February 12, 2004 at 4:39PM
(updated 4:00 p.m.)
So I admit that I was not the happiest camper earlier this week.
Monday was the worst, when I had to call Air Canada and cancel my flight to California, and also was forced to look ahead and acknowledge that it might be a while until I could type normally again, needed to rethink my short-term goals. My friend Andrea called to see how I was coping; I thought I was doing pretty well at being optimistic and perky until partway through the conversation when, inexplicably, I started crying.
I am fully aware that my situation is nothing compared to what some other people have gone through and are going through. But it's still an enormous comfort sometimes to be able to lean on the shoulders of people who care about you when you get tired of always having to look for silver linings, of having to be cheery. After my brief cry with Andrea, for example, I found it easier to see things with a fresh perspective, find my sense of humor again, move on.
I've never been the greatest at asking for help when I need it. It's the pride thing, you know, wanting to always appear in control and unafraid, fear of obligation and dependence. Over the years, however, I've learned the value of leaning on others I trust when I need to. I'm always careful about how often I do it; I see it more like stashing away a bar of a very good and expensive chocolate, nibbling away a bit at a time, not wanting to waste any of it or take it for granted that there always will be more.
As I've mentioned before, I very much appreciate the phone calls and e-mail messages from many of you out there. I feel very lucky to have the friends and family that I do, and of course, Jeff has already been so supportive and patient for the past year during my tendinitis.
Just a few recent acts of kindness:
- My sister helped me find waterproof shoes/boots that are easy to pull on and take off with one hand, new track pants (I suspect I will be living in track pants for the next while), brought over some food today.
- Craig gave me a padded arm sling which is much more comfortable than the one I got from the emergency ward.
- My mom-in-law (owns a restaurant) is bringing over a cooler full of homemade cooked and frozen food that I can just stick in the oven.
- Allison is coming over tomorrow night since it's too difficult for me to make the trek out to Richmond Hill these days. Really looking forward to hanging out with her.
- During his visit next week, Rand is also taking me to the fracture clinic, keeping notes for me during my appointment since I can't. Thank you so much, Rand!
Speaking of fracture clinics, looks like Luisa and Reid were also finally able to get a fracture clinic appointment for their son Michael, who is in a full leg cast after a skiing accident.
Have a great weekend, everyone. Don't break anything.
:-)
So I admit that I was not the happiest camper earlier this week.
Monday was the worst, when I had to call Air Canada and cancel my flight to California, and also was forced to look ahead and acknowledge that it might be a while until I could type normally again, needed to rethink my short-term goals. My friend Andrea called to see how I was coping; I thought I was doing pretty well at being optimistic and perky until partway through the conversation when, inexplicably, I started crying.
I am fully aware that my situation is nothing compared to what some other people have gone through and are going through. But it's still an enormous comfort sometimes to be able to lean on the shoulders of people who care about you when you get tired of always having to look for silver linings, of having to be cheery. After my brief cry with Andrea, for example, I found it easier to see things with a fresh perspective, find my sense of humor again, move on.
I've never been the greatest at asking for help when I need it. It's the pride thing, you know, wanting to always appear in control and unafraid, fear of obligation and dependence. Over the years, however, I've learned the value of leaning on others I trust when I need to. I'm always careful about how often I do it; I see it more like stashing away a bar of a very good and expensive chocolate, nibbling away a bit at a time, not wanting to waste any of it or take it for granted that there always will be more.
As I've mentioned before, I very much appreciate the phone calls and e-mail messages from many of you out there. I feel very lucky to have the friends and family that I do, and of course, Jeff has already been so supportive and patient for the past year during my tendinitis.
Just a few recent acts of kindness:
- My sister helped me find waterproof shoes/boots that are easy to pull on and take off with one hand, new track pants (I suspect I will be living in track pants for the next while), brought over some food today.
- Craig gave me a padded arm sling which is much more comfortable than the one I got from the emergency ward.
- My mom-in-law (owns a restaurant) is bringing over a cooler full of homemade cooked and frozen food that I can just stick in the oven.
- Allison is coming over tomorrow night since it's too difficult for me to make the trek out to Richmond Hill these days. Really looking forward to hanging out with her.
- During his visit next week, Rand is also taking me to the fracture clinic, keeping notes for me during my appointment since I can't. Thank you so much, Rand!
Speaking of fracture clinics, looks like Luisa and Reid were also finally able to get a fracture clinic appointment for their son Michael, who is in a full leg cast after a skiing accident.
Have a great weekend, everyone. Don't break anything.
:-)
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